Hello, brick wall

Today has been rough, really rough. I've been really emotional and came close to throwing in the diet towel today. At lunch it was hard for me to put one more forkful of lettuce into my mouth. Of course the minute I came home from work I hit the carbs, but in moderation. Only a handful of crumbled tortilla chips on my grilled chicken with salsa on top. I also had a couple of (oh so very thin) slices of cheese (no carbs, but still a diet no-no) and my usual green beans. Not really a lot of extra ounces of food, just some of what I can't have.

I weigh in on Monday. I don't plan on telling them about the small cheats. But I'm realizing that I need those little bursts to keep me on track. I'd rather slide down the hill a few steps than fall off the mountain completely. It's also been eye-opening to see where my food weaknesses are and what triggers me to reach for food. This diet has been a life examination and I wonder why I never did this before. I have to decide whether I'm going to do another month of HCG or just continue with the phentermine alone. Before I decide, I want to know if I'm still only allowed 800 calories. :)

That's it. Just feeling a little down today and needed to get it down.